Comments on: Selfish

By: Tom Ostring

Tom Ostring — Wed, 26 May 2010 01:44:09 +0000

RT @TopsyRT: Selfish http://bit.ly/bigCB6 #GreatBlog #Suicide

By: Tastelikecrazy (Amy Tucker)

Tastelikecrazy (Amy Tucker) — Sun, 31 Jan 2010 11:36:59 +0000

@jordonorr Yup. He’s who I wrote this about: http://tastelikecrazy.com/2009/08/15/selfish/

By: Amy Tucker

Amy Tucker — Sun, 31 Jan 2010 11:36:59 +0000

@jordonorr Yup. He's who I wrote this about: http://tastelikecrazy.com/2009/08/15/selfish/

By: Amy Tucker

Amy Tucker — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 06:58:45 +0000

@ConservativeLA I think I know a thing or two about death. http://tastelikecrazy.com/2009/08/15/selfish/

By: Amy Tucker

Amy Tucker — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 08:32:45 +0000

I was asked to move my post about my cousin’s suicide back to the front page. So, I did. http://tastelikecrazy.com/2009/08/15/selfish/

By: jennydecki

jennydecki — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 04:32:16 +0000

I’m no super-expert…just rocking the personal experience on this one…but I think there are people that do it and people that don’t. I know that sounds over-simplified and perhaps even silly, but really, in my heart of hearts I think it’s just that simple.

Some kind of wire in the brain that will either get tripped…or it won’t.

And none of us will ever know who has a “trippable” wire until it’s already too late.

Maybe that’s because I did the whole, “Tell them you care, make them understand they’re important to you” thing. I fear that telling people to express themselves when they see warning signs gives those same loved ones yet another reason to blame themselves if they forgot to say “I love you” (or whatever magical phrase they may have said that could have stopped the possibly unstoppable) that one super-important time. The time before it’s too late.

(That’s how *I* get to sleep at night. I don’t expect anyone else on earth to agree with my crackpot theories.)
.-= jennydecki´s last blog ..I’m Like A Pregnant Godzilla =-.

By: Amy

Amy — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 04:03:12 +0000

I’ve been there, I’ve been there, I’ve been there. A million times over, I’ve been there.

You’ve lost a baby. A baby just a few months younger than Ollie. You have the RIGHT to grieve for as long as you need. You have the RIGHT to consider all of your options – even if one of those options is to kill yourself. But, you don’t have the right to deprive your kids of their mom. To deprive your husband of his wife and I’m glad that you realize that.

You email me if you want to talk because I want to be your friend. How’s that for dorky?

I know you have friends and some of them might know how you feel, but I’ve been on both sides of the fence and they both suck.

By: gorillabuns

gorillabuns — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 03:51:41 +0000

coming from a person that has thought out long and crazy scenarios about this situation more times than one can count; i still can’t leave my “other” children in my husband’s care alone.

he simply couldn’t function. not because of the loss of me but because he would lose the house because he doesn’t know how to pay the fucking mortgage or how to brush our girl’s teeth.

so yes, cross-roads? a road I can’t cross for the sake of my children. not my husband. because in the end. i’m still a mother that loves her children but at times wish i was childless to be so selfish.

so there as i leave you with a happy fucking tale of life when it’s really fucked up.
.-= gorillabuns´s last blog ..metronome =-.

By: Moon

Moon — Thu, 11 Dec 2008 19:09:06 +0000

I want to extend to you my thoughts on this. When I was 11 years old my mother killed herself. I was devasted. I felt like it was my fault, due to I was the last one to see her alive and she told me what she was doing. I felt abandon not only by her, but my family. Then when I got older I went thru the anger stage. I was angre at her, myself, my family, and this world. I was on a self-destructive phase, I wanted to make everyone hurt as much as I did, and did a good job of it. And I did try to kill myself to. But never succuceded, I guess God did have a plan for me. the plan was Lauretta and James Capps. I was going to school with their daughter and one day I came up and announced to them I was going to runaway from my foster home, she said I could stay with them. Well I did, and never really left. But I was till doing self-destructive stuff, till one day when he stopped me. I never felt love till that day. And when he cried, because he feared I was heading for the grave, it broke my heart. It helped, but I still had alot to go thru. But my REAL saving grace came on September 13, 1991, when I gave birth to my son. I was so scared thru the whole pregency. I was young, didn’t even know how to take care of myself. But the minute they put him in my arm’s I knew that it would all work out. I do feel the same way, how can she have done this? I would never do that to my son. He is the best thing that I have EVER done. To me, He makes this world a more beautiful place to live in. Even after 26 years, it still haunts and hurts me. I have come to terms with it, I have forgiven her. But there are times that I miss her, that it physically hurts. With age, looking back on it I realize why she did it. She felt no way out. She was so unhappy, so misrable. But it does not excuse it. But I do understand it a little more. Then I found this articule and read it. I cried. When you said “If you know someone who is depressed then they need to know how much you care for them and how much they mean to you. They need to know how awful your life would be without them. They need to know that they are an integral part of your life.” I so wish I could have had the chance to tell her that. Not sure if it would have made a difference, but aleast she would have know. Sometimes I wish I had 10 mintues with her, just to hold her, to hear her call my name. But it will never be. Thank you for writing this. It does help.

By: Stick Mommy

Stick Mommy — Wed, 10 Dec 2008 15:05:58 +0000

I understand your anger and frustration. The anger will eventually pass. You're still left with the loss, and the frustration, but it does get easier. Stick Mommys last blog post..Nosy Pediatricians