I have entered no man’s land with regards to where I stand in the blogging world.
And that’s awesome when you’re just blogging cause you want to write about what’s going on with your life and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that.
BUT, when you’re wanting to gain some respect in MULTIPLE areas, it’s hard to do so with one blog.
Jack of all trades, master of none. That’s me.
Focus? What’s that?
I can remember telling my father, as we drove to the next bean field that needed to be checked, that I was a hell of a catch.
I was 14.
I knew about horses and horse breeding and Quarter Horse bloodlines. I had “soft hands” and had broken my first horse–I still have her. She lives at Tucker’s parents’ house. She was born in ’89.–when I was nine. I knew about crop rotation and pesticides and herbicides. I had been driving since I was 11. I could cook like a hell of a housewife. I could read people like The Mentalist.
I was a hell of a catch.
Now I’m almost 30–shot yo mouth!!!–and I can do all of those things and I’m damn savvy at Twitter and Google + and I can do websites–I did Taste Like Crazy and Sims 3 Gamer…among others–if someone wants to pay me. I know about monetization and actually make money with my sites. I know tech and I know gaming. I won a spot with KmartGamer to get an everything included trip to E3. I write for Kmart Gamer now. I’m a damn good writer. No. Really. I’m working on a book and it doesn’t suck. Ask, Crissy. She’s read some of the rough chapters. I know about spirits/booze from writing at b5Media. I know about Sim 3 and have a site dedicated to the subject.
I don’t know what to do.
I don’t want a million sites which is why I started my “baby feeds.” I’ve gotten some subscriptions to the various feeds–you can subscribe by looking above the header–and I like the idea that I’ve given people the option to read what they’re interested in reading. I like the fact that I can write about tech one day and booze the next and maybe I can publish a story and if you’re only interested in Mental Health then that’s all you read. I write about my/our life. I suppose I could be classified as a “mommy blogger” if you only read my “Life” feed.
I know I don’t write as honestly as I did when I first started Taste Like Crazy–then it was called Tastes Like Crazy but I couldn’t buy Tastes Like Crazy since someone was camping on my URL. I sensor myself more now. Can you believe it?! Me. Censoring myself. Heh.
Some “brands” are put off by my cussing–I write like I talk and think. Some don’t know what hole I fill–That sounds so dirty.
You can’t please everyone but I feel like I’m not pleasing anyone.
Least of all myself.
Maybe I’m supposed to figure out where I fit and go from there? But do I pick one and ignore everything else?
I had hoped all of this rambling would help me focus on something I’m passionate about. I had hoped I could pare down to what makes me me. Result?
I’m more confused than when I started.
What do I want?
I want to contribute to our monthly income. I want to not feel like a parasite. I want to prove that I am more than “just a mom.” I want my kids to still have their mom and I want to do a damn good job with them and I haven’t done a BAD job. Can one balance doing a damn good job with their kids and finding success with what they want to do.
What if they don’t know what they want to be when they grow up?